Green Inner Roads

Why Do I Walk Upon This Earth?
1. Auflage 2016
ISBN: 978-0-9828362-5-5
Verlag: BookBaby
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: Adobe DRM (»Systemvoraussetzungen)

E-Book, Englisch, 200 Seiten

This Book is a Key; it unlocks a fuller deeper understanding for you with the other books that you are reading, and self enrichment classes, counseling, etc., that you are participating in. This Book is a 'Companion Book' for your other books, this Book helps combine together all your acquired knowledge for an enhanced, practical, daily useful practicing of what you're learning, for the education and healing of your Soul. This Book will help you find yourself. This Book helps lead you into yourself, your Inner Roads. We are all fellow travelers on the Inner Roads to ourselves. Our Journey upon our Inner Roads is how we find our way to who we Are, and who we want to Become, and to an Understanding of our relationship to the Infinite, The Divine Consciousness. Blessings to You and Yours

Autoren/Hrsg.

Green, Paul

Leseproben

Chapter 4

The Person I am, is My Value

At times I have admired someone in the world that has become successful at what they do; an entertainer, industrialist, scientists, athletes, movie stars, singers of songs, doctors, etc. When I talk with someone that has actually met my heroes personally, the question is eventually asked, “What kind of person are they?” If the answer is, “they are kind of a jerk”, I feel disappointed, their accomplishments are then diminished in my eyes. If the answer is, “a great person, just what you would expect”, then my feeling is “that’s great, I thought they would be”. The person that they are, is their real value, not what they do, their job, or what they have. It is their personality their ideals that they live by daily, that’s their real value, the accomplishment that is remembered. It is the same for all of us.

The kind of person I am, my personality, this is my value, this is how I am remembered, this is how I am thought of. That is what lasts, what endures. That is what I always have with me, wherever I go, even when my pockets are empty. The person I am, the parts that make up me, this is my gold, my diamonds, my value. So making me into a better person is the best thing I can do for myself and for everyone around me. My personality is what I take with me when I pass back to the spiritual side of life. All of the material things that I have purchased stays behind on the physical side of life.

We all learn by example. My examples are my heroes, my family, friends, people I meet in my life’s activities, these are my daily examples. They teach me how to do business, how to treat other people, in good ways and not so good ways. I am learning all of this by example, even when I do not realize it. By making me into a better person, I then become a good example for others and in turn they become good examples for others. Theoretically by focusing only on improving myself, I can help make the world into a better place by being a good example. It all starts with me. I do not have to save the world or even a small part of it; I just have to save myself. Everything will grow and blossom from the goodness I cultivate within Myself.

Cars, houses, jewelry, businesses, jobs will come and go, but my feelings and emotions are with me forever. There are no timeouts with my feelings and emotions. Therefore, it is only logical and a real need that I should put time and energy into understanding, respecting and healing my feelings and emotions. Working on myself, is a valuable investment that pays me continuously through my daily living, and all the way through my entire life time. I am a valuable asset, investment.

My feelings and emotions are my greatest assets and my greatest gifts to others. When I tell someone that it is good to see them again, that I missed them, I love them, then they feel that I care about them, they feel cared for. That is a lasting gift to them. That was my feelings and emotions I gave to them, I expressed out loud what was in side of me, I gave of myself. It is the feelings we get from other people that we value treasure remember, as time goes by. Who do I remember in a good way or in a bad way in my life? Why do I remember them? What did they cause me to feel?

What am I hiding? To get at the truth about my feelings and emotions I have to dig deep within myself. I need to go into those dark places I do not want to go into. Those dark truths that I carry with me everyday, these hold me back from my peace of mind, and feeling good about myself. I am constantly hiding the parts of me I do not want anyone to see, including myself. I wear a mask to hide behind so other people will not see the wounded, scared, shameful feelings I have, in some facet portion part of my life. I am afraid that if people see this truth about me, they may not like me anymore. My mask can be made out of many things; my career, money, cars, my talent, companions, alcohol, drugs, my attitude and many other things. Living behind my mask is exhausting and I am not being honest with others or myself. Besides people will still feel and respond to the person that I am, my good parts and the parts I have tried to hide cover up. They will respond to me as a likable or not so likable person, or there are parts about me they feel uneasy about. My feelings and emotions are my value, they are my gold my diamonds, or they can be my mud that I carry in my pockets, each and every day. Sometimes people can feel the truth about me, even though I hide behind my mask.

When I am feeling angry, sad or deeply depressed, that is a good thing. I am connecting with my emotions, and my emotions are telling me there is a part of me that needs help. I need to look within myself to find when I was emotionally injured. By whom, where and when, and the circumstances I was in, when my feelings my heart were hurt, crushed. This is where the root cause of my issues, wounds, triggers, hurt feelings live, and this is what affects me, in the daily living of my life and my relationships with people. I need to be my own detective-doctor in order to diagnose when and where my injures to my heart occurred.

When I have been Hurt, this is a Wound, this is my Issue, this is a Button

that can be pushed, that Triggers my Emotions, throughout my life. If left unhealed,

the wound festers worsens and becomes Bigger, and can affect more parts of me.

Sticks and stones can only break my bones, but harsh unloving words can cut deep into my heart and make me slowly bleed in emotional pain for a lifetime. Harsh cutting words and the lack of affections like; no hugs, no I love you’s, this all makes me feel uncared for, that I am of less value. Consequently the result is, now I have been given, acquired, a low self-esteem, and I am always working at hiding that part of me, trying to cover it up. I do not want people to see that weak vulnerable part of me. Also I want to protect that part of me from getting hurt, injured again. And I’m living my life from weakness.

The injuries to my Soul, comes to me through my Heart.

My wounds-issues affect most aspects of my life. In my work, family, friends, relationships. Perhaps I will do the same to others, speaking harshly and holding back my love from people I care about, because this is what I was taught to do by the examples from my life experiences with family, friends and other people.

If I am walking upon this Earth, that means I am trying to develop myself into a better person. At times this can be very emotionally draining and great sadness can overwhelm me. This is normal. If I am feeling these things that means I am doing a good job. I am connecting with the pain-hurt parts that are inside of me. This is when it is time to work on myself, to bring the pain and hurt fully to the surface. Now I can deal with it, work on it with my new tools of understanding. This takes courage and a willingness to look at myself honestly. It helps to know that those of us that are walking upon this Earth, all need to do the same thing, I am not alone in this learning experience.

Actions I can do, to heal myself: I can set aside some time each day to go ahead and feel these sad distressing dark feelings I have, and then write about what I’m feeling in emotional detail. This is how I will get these feelings and emotions out of me. This is how I can heal me, my issues. This work needs to be accomplished first, then I can forgive and then forget.

By writing all my feelings down, this is how I remove the hurt from my heart. Write down what I am feeling, the anger, hurt, sadness, loneliness, feeling uncared for. I have been holding these in and that has not been working for me. It is time to get these hurt emotions out of me; I need to express these in some way. Some ways to do this are; Journaling, telling others my story, writing letters to people that have hurt me (I do not have to actually mail the letter, I can burn it, bury it, garbage can it). Also I can join group meetings, so I can hear other people express themselves, in this way I can learn how to let it out, how to express myself. Group meetings helps in support and helps give me a little push, that we all need some times, to get started, open up, and let out my stored up feelings emotions. If I take action to help myself, then I will find others that are like me, and I can learn from them and they can learn from me, we can be examples for each other. Using a counselor is always good. I may have to write-Journal about the same thing many many times, or attend meetings for a good length of time, this is normal. The more I do, the more I heal. The more I practice, the better I become.

When events or something said to me no longer triggers an emotion an anger in me of that issue-wound, then I have healed that wound. Because my wound has healed I no longer become emotional when I am touched, by spoken words or events, because the trigger is just not there. I may visit that issue-wound again when I need a deeper understanding of that issue or I need to learn a different aspect of that same issue. My education is continuous, because there are different levels depths of my understandings of my lessons that I still need to learn.

Take the time to be alone with myself, in this way I get to know myself. My true feelings will come up to the surface, then I can processes them in a productive constructive beneficial way, by feeling them and then writing in emotional details about what...