Hutton Pride Aside

A Father's Journey Through His Son's Addiction
1. Auflage 2014
ISBN: 978-0-9909283-1-7
Verlag: Pride Aside Publishing Group
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: Adobe DRM (»Systemvoraussetzungen)

E-Book, Englisch, 240 Seiten

Pride Aside is one Father's attempt to be vocal about his son's addiction, and how their family has navigated this perilous journey together.

Autoren/Hrsg.

Hutton, Steve

Leseproben

Chapter 1

What sorrow for those who get up early in the morning looking for a drink of alcohol and spend long evenings drinking wine to make themselves flaming drunk. (ISAIAH 5:11, NLT)

The phone rang at 12:52 a.m. Some consider this late at night; others think it’s early in the morning. Regardless, this was the type of phone call I had received numerous times before. Over the last five years these calls did not occur weekly, or even monthly, but they did occur several times. They usually occurred in waves or spurts. We might go a few months without a call like this, but when they started it was not unusual to receive several of these calls over the course of a few days or weeks.

“Mr. Steve, I am really sorry to have to call you, but it looks like we have a problem over here.” Brian was calling. Brian was Ben’s roommate. Brian and Ben had been co-workers off and on and very good friends for nearly a year. Brian is what we in Mississippi call a “good ole boy.” He works hard. He is polite. He says, “Yes ma’am” and “No sir.” He is clean cut and professional. (At least as professional as you would expect of a redneck from Pelahatchie, Mississippi.) Brian and Ben were both Sales Associates at a Ford dealership in Jackson. Sales Associate was what was printed on their business cards. But they were car men, car salesmen, and good ones. Brian has sold more cars than most of the other 35 sales associates at the dealership and is probably in line for management even though he is only 25 years old.

My son Ben is 23, and for the past five years has been a drug addict.

“Mr. Steve, I don’t really know what has happened. Perry (the other roommate) and I were asleep and the next thing we know there is a girl here. Ben is yelling and screaming; we can’t calm him down. She sprays him with pepper spray. The neighbors come out, someone called the cops, and there are cops everywhere.”

I told Brian I would be right there. And while it wasn’t a regular occurrence, once again I got dressed and left Joni, my wife of 27 years and Ben’s loving mother, to go see what had happened this time.

At 1:02 a.m. I was in Bessie, my 13 year old GMC Yukon XL with 313,000 miles on it. I would love to have a newer vehicle. But I had to choose between a new car or replacing outdated things in our home because of the expense of dealing with Ben’s addiction since it became apparent to us five years ago. I once heard Dave Ramsey, a syndicated radio host and leading financial counselor, say something like, “You know your car has been a good vehicle when you have had it long enough to name it.” Dave spent an entire radio segment taking calls from people across America telling the world the name of their prized possession. Joni drives a 14-year-old Lexus RX300 with 202,000 miles. Her name, I mean its name, is Lexi. Joni hates that I have given her car a name as well, because it implies she will have to wait even longer before I can afford to buy her something nicer and newer.

Anyway, I was in my Yukon headed to Madison, a suburb of Jackson. Ben, Brian, and Perry were leasing one of my three bedroom rental properties in Madison. As I turned onto the highway out of our gated subdivision, I tried calling Ben’s cell phone. Sometimes, when he was in a situation like this, I could keep him calm so things didn’t get worse. For some reason he would listen to me. He trusted me. He loved me, and he knew I loved him, even though I despised his addiction. Since I knew the police were already involved, I assumed Ben would not answer his phone, but I wanted to try anyway. But there was no answer. So I called Brian for an update.

Brian said, “There are 10 or 11 cop cars here. I have never seen anything like it Mr. Steve, I just have never seen anything like it. He was fine when we went to bed, and then we woke up to this commotion and he was completely crazy. Fighting. We tried to calm him down but he just kept fighting.”

I knew exactly what Brian was talking about.

Joni and I had seen this happen before. I had witnessed several crazy events like this much more often than Joni had. Fortunately most of them didn’t occur in our home. Instead, I would go wherever Ben was and deal with the situation alone to shield Joni from seeing her firstborn in that state. Joni had seen Ben’s rage on occasion, just not at the level I had.

Within five minutes I was turning onto Hunters Creek Circle. Ben’s house, or my house really, was the second house on the right. There was very little room to park as the street was littered with marked and unmarked vehicles from the Madison Police Department.

Madison is a beautiful bedroom community five miles north of the Jackson city limits, separated only by the town of Ridgeland. When traveling north on Interstate 55 you don’t fully realize when you have travelled from one town to the next. But the buildings begin to get nicer, the landscape around the highway signs begins to get prettier, and the affluence of the new surroundings becomes more and more apparent.

Madison is without question, at least in my opinion, the most beautiful and well-planned city in the state of Mississippi. Mary Hawkins Butler is in her 34th year as mayor, winning her first election in 1981 at age 26. She is one tough cookie as a leader, but her actions are purely out of the love for her city. She has held firm to her master plan over the course of her nine terms. This includes implementing strict housing covenants, which has allowed Madison to boast some of the priciest properties per square foot in the state. Then, as businesses clamored for the opportunity to service those households by bringing grocery stores, gas stations, clothing stores, restaurants, and other big box stores, she held even more firm as she made sure their appearance and structures met with the city’s high standards. For instance, no orange can be found on the Home Depot. The golden arches of McDonald’s are only three feet tall. The Burger King and the Texaco gas station are beautiful red brick buildings. A wall of transplanted trees behind the massive Wal-Mart Supercenter hides the semi-truck deliveries.

So I pulled up to the curb of 529 Hunters Creek Circle, one of the few rental houses I still owned in Madison. Mayor Mary does not like rental houses. Owner-occupied dwellings usually ensure better upkeep, better curb appeal, and better appraisals. However Mayor Mary and I had been friends a long time and she knew I followed all of the city’s rules to a ‘T’ in maintaining my properties. But at this moment one of my properties was surrounded by her top-notch police force. They were dealing with an unruly tenant, who also happened to be my 23-year-old son.

As I walked down the driveway I was met by a girl I’ll call “Gina.” Gina looked rough. Joni and I first met Gina a year or so earlier when a friend of ours invited her to our Sunday School class. We had known of Gina prior to meeting her. She attended a private school that was a rival to the school Ben attended. I would not describe Gina as attractive, at least not anymore. At one time she was gorgeous--long jet-black hair, dark skin, and perfect curves. But her addiction had changed her features. Her face was pockmarked and covered with scabs. She was bleeding from the corner of her mouth, which made me wonder what had happened moments earlier. I had to remind myself that it was her addiction that made her look this way and inside she is still someone’s beautiful daughter; but all I saw at that moment was her ugliness.

Gina started trying to explain, “I had to pepper spray him, Mr. Steve, I didn’t want to but I had to. He hit me. He just kept coming. Perry tried to stop him, but he just kept coming. Perry would hit him and hit him, trying to make him stop, but he wouldn’t settle down. He just kept coming at us.”

I was beginning to see pieces of the picture.

It was like trying to put a jigsaw puzzle together. You look for puzzle pieces that have similar coloring or similar shading and you group those pieces together in order to get a general idea of what the full picture might look like. Once you have a general idea of where the pieces may best fit together, you can start concentrating on the details. It is at that point you start to notice the shapes of the individual pieces and try to actually fit some of those pieces together.

But I was not ready at that point for the details. I was still asking questions trying to get a general idea of the big picture. Was Ben here? Was he inside the house or outside? Was he hurt? Was he alive? Was he under arrest? Would he lose his job? Would he lose the car he just bought with his own money for the first time ever? Would he need treatment again? Would he consider another treatment facility? Would he kill himself because he was tired of fighting and losing, again and again?

I brushed past Gina and continued down the driveway to the carport at the rear of the house. I walked around Gina’s new Lexus, which was in the driveway. How ironic, I thought as I walked around Gina’s car. My beautiful wife has to drive a 14-year-old version of this brand new automobile. My sweet wife has been a school teacher all of her adult life except for the time she took off when our sons were born to stay at home and nurture them until they started kindergarten. This same sweet wife gets up early, stays late at work, and even works weekends to be one of the best teachers in the county. But we cannot afford a new car for her because of what addiction has cost our family.

And yet here is...