Jie Black & White

1. Auflage 2023
ISBN: 978-3-7575-6900-6
Verlag: epubli
Format: EPUB
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E-Book, Englisch, 227 Seiten

When a victim of abuse became abuser, then what would happen? Who killed him? His parents, his childhood friends, his classmates, his teacher, the indifferent neighbors or himself?

Wu Jie, a novelist, a lecturer about creative writing for seven years, and founder of Wu Jie Mass Media. She is a well-loved young novelist in China. Novels: Lingering Glow, Above Cloud, Black and White, 38? Love.

Autoren/Hrsg.

Jie, Wu

Weitere Mitwirkende

Liu, Bin

Liu, Jirong

Leseproben

After graduation from secondary school, as everyone expected, I could not go to high school. At last I could leave the place, I had been waiting for the chance for sixteen years.

In the day I left, it was the hottest time in summer, the sun was spitting sparks to engulf the world. I wore my new short sleeve shirt which was not fit well on my body, carried on my backpack, left the village without turning my back. On my way, many people asked me warmly where I was going, I said proudly:”To south to leave this place.” I heard that they were talking among themselves, but it did not matter anymore. You would never be able to imagine my excitement, I could not fall into sleep in those days in night, I had been imagining the world I would go, in that place none knew my past, there would be a place without bias and discrimination.

At last I could leave, and I grew up. I had been waiting for such a long time, the day finally arrived. When I was fifteen, I was wronged by RainBirth for stealing the money, everyone believed his bullshit, even my father believed his words. In the night Father gave the only 100 yuan we had to Army Feng. I knew he wanted to protect me, from then on, I got a bad name of thief. Those people who had been boasted of justice tried to avoid me with their best efforts, RainBirth stood in front of me complacently. I could only raise my fist and my head to safeguard the only dignity I have. I was afraid that once I lowered my head, I would not be able to raise my head again.

I once tried to run away and leave the place. Nevertheless before I left the village, I was chased back by Father. When I saw Father was faltering forward to me, I could not move my legs anymore. I followed Father to home, when my dumb mother saw me, she shed tears silently and hugged me into her arms tightly. I leaned on her chest, that was the first time I knew what was maternal love, what was the warmth of family.

My father sat in front of me, said:”StrivingSuccess! I knew you have been wronged, at least you should finish your secondary school with a diploma, at that time, you will be sixteen, thus we could feel a bit assured when you leave home.” Mum nodded her head to me in a wild manner.

When I saw my parents’ worrying expression, I had to make compromise. I stayed to continue my study. I did not expect within one year of my stay, I saw the death of a human. When he left, I was thinking, what made him get the courage to die. For the thing, even I thought for hundreds and thousands times, I still lacked the courage.

Many years later I finally understood that RainBirth had nothing, but I had my parents and a family.

I decided to leave, before I left, Bright Yang came to me. She was in daze, her words were incoherent. She just sat across me, said many words which could not make sense, I listened quietly. I thought she might ask about the thing between Dusk Lin and RainBirth, I did not expect she never talked about them. I could not remember what she told me but one sentence: I heard you will leave, I come here to see you. You will leave, all left, only I stay.

When we were small, while we were fawning on her, we were jealous of her. She not only had a good looking, but also was liked by everyone. Whenever someone saw her, he would say Bright Yang  really has good look. At the moment she would say thanks to anyone who was speaking with her sweet voice.

She always had bob cut like us with her ears exposed. In secondary school she had bob cut with her ears covered, I heard that her mother just did not want her to look so beautiful. Nevertheless no matter what kind of hairstyles could not prevent her good look. Her big eyes always liked to stare at you innocently, as if the eyes could pierce through your bad thinking, when she was smiling, she would show her two little canine teeth, her eyebrows were narrow and long, there was a beauty spot at the corner of her eye.

To her, everything was beautiful in the world, nothing couldn’t be solved. Even she knew clearly that RainBirth and I couldn’t move on together, she still tried tirelessly to mediate for us. I still remembered when we were little, and played together, RainBirth had a foul mouth, he liked to provoke me. I could not learn to curse people, thus I like to fight with my fist. Every time RainBirth would be beaten to cry, but he never learned his lesson. She liked to be a mediator for us, she would criticize RainBirth, and criticize me too. She would raise her proud princess-like face, tell us we are friends, we have to play together, we could not fight each other. If you fight again, I will let my brother give you a lesson. You have to be nice. RainBirth was willing to listen to her words, every time so long as she spoke, RainBirth would immediately yield. But Dusk Lin would always stand at the side, would not say a word with her lowered head. She always followed Bright Yang closely.

One time I fought with BrainBirth again, Bright Yang followed us and said to me like a monk was chanting his sutra: “You should not beat RainBirth, you have to talk with him! You need not be so violent! Otherwise, nobody will play with you.”

I was really sick and tired of her words, looked at her and said:”You just shut up for old dad, you needn’t bother old dad anymore, otherwise, I would beat you too!” I said in a loud voice, all people heard my words. Her princess-like face was covered with tears, while crying, she ran away. From the day on, she did not speak with me for a long time.

In a short while after she got self-cure, she began to mind other people’s businesses again, when she saw I and RainBirth were fighting, she came forward to persuade us again. At that time I thought she was different wit us, not only because she lived like a princess, but also to her everyone was equal, she had something which she wanted to safeguard.

After RainBirth passed away, everyone pretended to forget about him, only she came after his death relentlessly, at last she found those dirty, dark things behind his death. After RainBirth wronged me, everyone thought I was a thief, but she came to me, said:”I know you did not steal the money, it is RainBirth who stole the money!” She believed I am not a thief, she was really unlike those people.

I pretended I don’t care, told her then what, and left.

I knew even if she believed me, we both explained to those people, then what, none wanted to listen to us, those people wouldn’t listen to us. Even so, I was still very glad and I wanted to fly as someone believed I am not a thief! Someone believed I did not steal the money! I raised my head to look up at the sky, the sky was so blue, wind was so cool, even schoolmates in the school yard were kind and nice, everything in the world in my eyes became beautiful too.

I really could not expect such kind of beauty would became crazy, and she could only stay in hospital.

As to the death of RainBirth, I had a secret which I had told none. It was only the secret which made me feel uneasy even I left my hometown for so many years.

Several hours before he passed away, I saw RainBirth. He held a rope in his hand, the rope he used to hang himself.

In the morning on my way to school, I bumped into him, he held a rope in his hand. I asked:”Do you take the rope to hang yourself?” He ignored me, which made me even more angry, I said to his back “You poor guy, your mother does not love you, your father does not cherish you, you are caressed by teacher. What’s the significance for your living? It’s nice for you to hang yourself with the rope. Poor guy, the one hundred yuan is enough to bury you!” He turned and glanced at me once without refuting, then turned and left.

In the afternoon, he hung himself, as soon as I entered classroom, I heard a girl shouted in a shrilled voice: Someone hung himself! I followed people and rushed to the forest, saw RainBirth was hanging there under an old elm tree. His body was swaying in wind, many girls shrilled here or there. My legs turned powerlessly, he really died, and he died in that clean-cut fashion.

After I left my hometown, I came to DongGuan to work by myself, the outside world was completely different with what I had imagined. There were more prejudices, you had more to face and endure. At that time I realized that even you grew up, you still could run away from the rules of the world.

Sometimes I even admired RainBirth as he could run away from everything, but I was trapped in the year when I was fifteen.

For those words I had told RainBirth, as if they had grown into my head, they would flash across my mind and torture me without stopping. In the year, Bright Yang had asked me for several times about the thing, I dared not to mention to her about the thing. If in the day I had not said those words, would RainBirth die? I asked the words for many times to myself, but I just couldn’t find an answer.

RainBirth had already been dead, but I was still alive. Sometimes I thought I did nothing wrong, his death had nothing to do with me, that was his choice. This world had never treated him kindly, neither to me?

When I was very small, I knew the world was not fair, just like my parents, who were despised by other people, even I, their son was despised by people too, none told me the reason. My parents always told me you needn’t care about their words, it would turn better if you endured them. But when the thing would turn better? All people bully the weak and fear the strong, that was the truth I got to know later. When I gradually grew up, I decided to protect my parents and fight against the prejudice with my fists. I...