Leach Love it When You Come, Hate it When You Go

1. Auflage 2014
ISBN: 978-1-84523-327-3
Verlag: Peepal Tree Press
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: Adobe DRM (»Systemvoraussetzungen)

E-Book, Englisch, 162 Seiten

Sharon Leach's Love It When You Come, Hate It When You Go occupies new territory in Caribbean writing. The characters of her stories are neither the folk of the old rural world, the sufferers of the urban ghetto familiar from reggae, or the old prosperous brown and white middle class of the hills rising above the city, but the black urban salariat of the unstable lands in between, of the new housing developments. These are people struggling for their place in the world, eager for entry into the middle class but always anxious that their hold on security is precarious. These are people wondering who they are - Jamaicans, of course, but part of a global cultural world dominated by American material and celebrity culture. Her characters - male and female - want love, self-respect and sometimes excitement, but the choices they make quite often offer them the opposite. They pay lip service to the pieties of family life, but the families in these stories are no less spaces of risk, vulnerability, abuse and self-serving interests. Sharon Leach's virtue as a writer is that she brings a cool, unsentimental eye to the follies, misjudgements and self-deceptions of her characters without ever losing sight of their humanity or losing interest in their individual natures. The beauty of her writing is its ability to marry the underlying muscular deftness of her prose with the voices of her narrating characters and the variety of registers they speak. She writes about the pursuit of sex, its joys, disappointments and degradations with a frankness little matched in existing Caribbean writing.

Autoren/Hrsg.

Leach, Sharon

Leseproben

FIFTEEN MINUTES

An agent was the only way to go, for bookings and everything else. All the big stars had agents. Even the no-name ones. She would become a big-time Hollywood star; she’d always dreamed that. Right now, talk shows were interested. That was fine. But that was just the tip of the iceberg; she craved more – celebrity product endorsements – hell, maybe even national ad campaigns for make-up, perfume, lingerie. Fast food, well, that was iffy – depended on what kind – nothing greasy and disgusting – her skin, even at her age, was prone to acne breakouts. No biggie. She was up for anything. How did that saying go? The world was her oyster and this was the land of opportunities. For now, she would work with TV – until she could reposition herself for the big screen. All she needed was a foot in the door. In the meantime, TV. She’d worked hard with a trainer to manage her weight so that she wouldn’t appear bloated – everybody knew TV added ten pounds. Right now, she needed a guest-starring role on a primetime show. Comedy or drama, she wasn’t fussy. Or, better still, a reality show. She wasn’t a fan but there was no denying those shows could lead to more, maybe to her own talk show. She was famous now. Well, almost. Almost famous. Ha ha. Like the movie. But look how far she’d come, from that shithole in Kingston. She had her daddy to thank for that. Thank God for DNA tests. Turned out that the man her mother had whored around with had, for whatever reason, filed for her and sent her to college. So far, she’d not managed to get out of that godforsaken North Carolina backwater, but one day everybody in Jamaica would know her name. Sheer luck had brought her to this point and she’d be an idiot not to capitalise on it. She would become a fucking celebrity. Another Kardashian.

She’d been invited to a few red carpet premieres. She’d begun to be recognised when she went out. Naturally, men had started coming on to her. She’d given head to more men in the last few months than at any other time in her life. Which said a lot since, unlike most of her girlfriends, she’d always liked giving blowjobs – most women were squeamish or they griped about jaw cramps. There’d been celebrities, too – a rapper (hitless since the 90s) who delighted in debasing her in countless ways; a famous television anchorman with a secret drug problem; a basketball star with the Knicks who was incapable of screwing her unless she dressed and spoke like a five-year-old; and a faded androgynous, middle-aged blonde R&B singer from the eighties intent on making a comeback.

But calls for bookings were slowing. She’d shelled out good money to hire an acting coach but where were the jobs? “Find me work!” she snapped at the agent, a nervous woman with big, stiff-sprayed hair. “Ah dat mi a pay you fo’”. Then, into the mist of incomprehension that hovered like a mushroom cloud, she clarified, “That’s what I’m paying you for. Isn’t it?”

“So... I can’t believe I’m here with you. You’re the It-Girl, y’know? Like Paris. Lohan...”

He was beautiful and slight – nobody, really. His name wasn’t a household one. But he was a model, and so he was loaded, at least on his way to becoming so.

“Yeah, well.” She sipped from an oversize glass of wine, and affected a bored posture.

“I’m serious. What you did was the coolest thing, ever! Saving that kid. And with you afraid of water. Diving in – that’s just awesome.”

She was touched by how sincere he was, and had to fight the urge to confess that rescuing the kid, Toby, who had dived, not fallen, into the pool, had been a buck-up. That he was really an eleven-year-old on his way to a serious drug problem, who had in fact been fleeing the dealer, who operated from the back of the Y, where she’d gone to buy a dime bag of weed. That, yes, she swam like a fish, and she’d never been afraid of water. That she and Toby had promised keep each other’s secret. But she bit her lip instead and continued to look bored.

She’d met the model the weekend before, at a party in New York. The week after she was on the west coast, visiting him. From where they sat in his darkened living room, the view was of mountains and sea. Behind them music quietly spilled out from his elaborate entertainment system, filling the room like a mist. They could see one of LA’s most intriguing sights: a Pacific sunset merging with the blanket spread of lights that flowed from the front steps right out to the sea.

“Where have you got to, leibling?” the model, a blue-eyed boy with bee-stung lips, originally from Frankfurt, asked, a frown in his voice. Then stretching, so that his incredible six-pack showed beneath his shirt, he reached over, took the wine glass from her, and set it down on the glass coffee table in front of them.

She smiled, lightly flicked his muscular arm. She could scarcely believe that she was sitting here in a living room almost overlooking Beverly Boulevard. Not bad, considering she’d met him only after being rejected by a man she’d been trying to snare at that party, an important East Coast man with connections to powerful movie directors. But this would do. She smiled at him again. Maybe it was even better.

Her agent said the phones had stopped ringing for her. “We knew it wouldn’t last forever, hon,” she said, patting her hand across the table. “This happens all the time. They give you your fifteen minutes, then they move on. They have incredibly short memories in Hollywood.”

They were at lunch at Second Ave Deli, a haunt of East Coast celebrities – bonafides and up-and-comers. Here, starlets brushed shoulders with A-listers, the beautiful anorexic set contemplated their plates of garnished celery sticks, and celebrities famous for being famous answered chirping cellphones and BlackBerrys.

She tapped her finger against her front teeth, distracted. Her agent wasn’t being truthful. She’d seen ordinary people turn their fifteen minutes of fame into a Hollywood career. That girl from Survivor, as a for instance, had got a gig hosting on The View with Barbara Walters. And why hadn’t she moved on that screenplay that guy had volunteered to write? Anybody could become a star. This was fucking America, wasn’t it?

Around them flatware clinked. They’d been there already almost forty minutes and still nobody had recognised her. Hoisting up her sunglasses onto her head, she looked around expectantly. Still nobody ventured over for an autograph, or to snatch a bit of food off her plate to sell on eBay.

“So, how’s model boy?”

“OK,” she said, staring out the window. The truth was model boy had dropped her shortly after they’d gone to a party in Beverly Hills and her name hadn’t shown up on the list.

“I need work.” She stared despondently into her matzoh ball soup. “I’d take a non-speaking role,” she said listlessly, turning to look at a man who sat scratching his nose and staring at her from a table across the room.

“Sweetie.” The agent spoke soothingly, looking up from her chicken salad. She had a face that seemed composed totally of contours and planes. Her lipstick had faded, leaving the faintest trace of lip-liner. “There’s nothing.”

“Kim Kardashian gets paid by the hottest club owners just to show up at their clubs. Lindsay Lohan –”

“Due respect, that’s Kim K and Lindsay L. A party girl and a Hollywood star. And let me tell you this. Their bubble will burst soon. Nobody’s hot forever.”

Why was the agent fighting her like this? William Hung was still milking his wretched Ricky Martin impression, still turning up on goddamned red carpets in Hollywood. She pushed the food round her plate, thinking maybe she should hit the gym harder.

“What about... you know, skin?”

“Skin?”

“I’m not above that. I just want to get out there.” She hated the ring of desperation she heard in her voice.

“T&A?” The agent gaped, unchewed food showing in her mouth. “Oh dear. You don’t want tits and ass. You’re better than T&A. You have a college degree, for God’s sake.”

“Don’t tell me what I want.”

She had the impression that someone was standing beside her. She looked up. It was the man who’d been making eyes at her from across the room. He was middle-aged, dressed untidily – his coat and sagging tweed pants had obvious tomato sauce stains – thin as a rail and sporting black-rimmed Coke-bottle glasses. His weak, watery blue eyes blinked slowly behind the thick lenses.

She perked up, passed her tongue over her teeth, in case there were lipstick stains, and smiled. She clicked through her mental Rolodex but didn’t recognise him. Still, he could quite easily be someone influential in show business, a director, maybe. When he hesitated, she licked her lips, got the taste of gloss on them.

The man looked quizzically at her. Sticking out her chest, she sighed, held out a hand for a pen and paper.

“I’m sorry,” the man said haltingly. “You seem, well, you look... Oh dear. I am sorry. I thought...