E-Book, Englisch, 368 Seiten
Amor / Campbell / T. Wurth Roots of My Fears
1. Auflage 2025
ISBN: 978-1-80336-937-2
Verlag: Titan Books
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: 6 - ePub Watermark
Terrifying Stories of Ancestral Horror
E-Book, Englisch, 368 Seiten
ISBN: 978-1-80336-937-2
Verlag: Titan Books
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: 6 - ePub Watermark
A Bram Stoker Award nominated author, voice actor, illustrator and budding screenwriter based in Bristol. Co-creator of horror-comedy podcast Calling Darkness, starring Kate Siegel. Her stories feature many times on hugely popular horror anthology shows The NoSleep Podcast, Shadows at the Door, Creepy, and more. Appears in a number of print anthologies and numerous podcast appearances to date. Short film Hidden Mother now showing in festivals. Gemma illustrates her own works, hand-paints book covers and narrates audiobooks, including The Possession of Natalie Glasgow by Hailey Piper.
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LAMB HAD A LITTLE MARY
ELENA SICHROVSKY
Lamb had a little Mary, with cheeks as white as snow.
And everywhere that Lamb went, Mary was sure to go.
Lamb never roamed far into the forest, but wherever she walked on her long legs Mary had to run to keep up. Lamb told Mary that one day her body would sprout legs just as long and spindly. Someday, she would be taller than the berry bushes; someday, she would look just like Lamb, with those big, shadow-rimmed eyes and sour breath.
The only place Mary was not allowed to follow was the cellar. Some nights Lamb would go down there and open a spigot of rage and let it rush into her mouth, like a flaming red colony of ants. Mary would sit on the edge of her bed and wait and wait until Lamb came back up the stairs, wobbling on those long, bendy legs.
Mary always knew when Lamb had been to the cellar because she felt fire from Lamb’s tummy when she laid her head there to rest. She felt warm droplets hit her dress when Lamb pissed herself while tucking Mary in bed. She felt heat from Lamb’s snores when she fell asleep beside her, heavy arms splayed across Mary’s thin bones.
The one thing that still felt cold was the light from the window. Lamb always forgot to put the paper-cut stars on the glass pane, so the night became one giant black eye that never cried or even blinked. Even when Mary closed her eyes, she could feel the chill creeping through her eyelids.
* * *
The next morning Lamb opened her mouth and last night’s dinner came pouring out for breakfast.
Mary was still hungry, so she went out into the forest and plucked black pearls off the throat of a chokeberry bush. Chokeberries had magic because of their ruby-midnight color. She whispered a secret to each berry before pushing it between her teeth. She told the first one that sometimes, in her dreams, Lamb acted more like Wolf, except Wolf wasn’t real; it only lived inside storybook spines. She told the last berry that she wished for another Mary. They could be little together; they could push Lamb’s sleeping body off the bed and watch the paper stars shine forever.
The last chokeberry must have had the most powerful magic, because it listened to her. By winter Lamb’s legs grew much fatter and Mary heard knocking from inside when she put an ear to her swollen tummy. Lamb slept longer, read fewer stories at bedtime, and sometimes didn’t return from the cellar until morning.
One day the tummy-knocking stopped and the crying started.
Then Mary met Tiny.
* * *
Tiny was wrinklier and pinker than Mary. Tiny cried at the sun when it set and cried when it rose. Tiny even cried at the moon. Sometimes, when Mary told Tiny about the chokeberry that had granted her wish, Tiny stopped crying.
Lamb looked strange now. Parts of her chest looked longer, like bells with pink ends that Tiny would grab and suck at. Mary was hungry too, but Lamb said only Tiny could drink from the bells of white cream and sweet smell. Mary wanted to go out and find more chokeberries, but now the ground wore ice dresses and glass shoes and Mary was afraid to slip into their dizzying dance, so she sat by the window and licked wet mist off the shivering glass instead.
Then Lamb’s pink bells stopped ringing.
Tiny cried and cried until her little mouth grew cherry red, but there was nothing left to drink. Lamb went back to the cellar and Mary waited and watched Tiny thrashing in her cradle. After some time, when Lamb did not return, Mary put a spot of spit on her finger and laid it between Tiny’s lips. There were no teeth, just soft elastic gums sucking at her fingertip.
One night, Lamb came back from the cellar and her legs were dancing so hard and fast that when she spun, she flung Mary across the room. Mary hit her head and rolled out the open door, landing in the ballroom of dark ice dresses. Snowflakes spun her into a dream that was silver at the edges and howling in the center.
Mary didn’t get up for some time. She just laid there, drinking up the cold beauty like poison. Her fingers and toes disappeared and then returned, again and again like the wooden seat of a swing.
When Mary finally crawled back into the house, shivering and shaking, there was no one in the bedroom.
* * *
Mary ran around inside and outside, calling for Tiny. She wondered if the magic had run out and the chokeberries had taken Tiny back. She determined then and there that she would dig through the snow and find more chokeberries; she would tell them every secret she had, about the family of dead snails under the flowerpots and the headless monsters under her pillowcase. Anything they wanted to know, she would give them, if only they would let her have Tiny again.
Then Mary smelled a whiff of piss from below. She wasn’t supposed to enter the cellar, but Tiny didn’t know that. Mary had to warn her. She climbed down the staircase, one hand covering her eyes, two fingers spread far apart enough to see through the crack.
When she arrived at the cellar door it was open. Lamb was holding Tiny and pressing her little lips to the rage spigot. Mary ran over and snatched Tiny away. The fire that Lamb drank was bitter and angry, and Tiny should only have sweet things in her mouth, things laughing and white and soft-smelling.
But Lamb was angry that Mary had come to the cellar. She rose, loud and red, moving fast and dark, and she scratched Mary.
So it turned out that Lamb was part Wolf after all.
* * *
Mary took Tiny to the bed and laid down to sleep beside her. The scratch on Mary’s arm burned against the blankets, so she told the scratch a story. The paper-cut stars on the dresser got up and sat around her in a glowing circle to listen, too. Mary talked about the powerful family of chokeberries that wandered the forest beyond the house, and how the magic that had given her Tiny would surely keep them safe.
But then the paper stars heard footsteps coming, got scared and ran away.
Mary saw Lamb-Wolf looming on crooked legs—a tall, faceless shadow—until she moved forward and collapsed to sleep at their side, her unhappy mouth wide and wet with drool.
The sheets were damp when they woke up. Lamb-Wolf said that Mary had wet the bed. Mary saw the dark stain on the front of Lamb-Wolf’s clothes, but didn’t say anything. She washed the sheets like she was told and boiled them in the sun until they bubbled to the surface like drowned clouds.
Mary’s arm still hurt where Lamb-Wolf had scratched her, so she showed her wound to the icicles hanging from the rooftop. The icicles poured little rivers onto the patch of skin, now rippling in hues of purple and green. Mary explained that the scratch had transformed into a spiral of dream-dust, just like the Northern Lights, and the icicles melted into applause, one at a time.
* * *
Lamb-Wolf was different now. Her eyes were even darker than before. Mary followed her to the bed and then down to the cellar and back to the bed, but Lamb-Wolf didn’t talk to her anymore. Mary was too afraid to get scratched again, so she just watched Lamb-Wolf hold Tiny up to the spigot, watched Tiny cry all night, watched Tiny reaching in vain for Lamb-Wolf’s chest bells.
Days and nights passed. The icy ballgowns of the forest went away, and the earth took out green skirts and thin brown scarves. Mary taught Tiny how to count Lamb-Wolf’s crusty yellow toes and crawl up the long bridges of Lamb-Wolf’s legs. She told Tiny that soon the chokeberries would bloom again and they would know how to help. They might even fix Lamb-Wolf so that she would just be Lamb again.
* * *
The chokeberries didn’t come back in time.
They didn’t stop Lamb-Wolf from dropping Tiny under a soapy tongue of bathwater. Lamb-Wolf was closing her eyes on the edge of the tub, and Tiny’s mouth opened under the water, with no sound coming out. Mary got the sleeves of her dress wet when she reached in to rescue Tiny.
Then Lamb-Wolf woke up and pulled at Mary’s wrist, but Mary pushed her away. She didn’t want her to sleep in their bed tonight. She wanted to dream with Tiny and the paper-cut stars. So she pushed Lamb-Wolf’s head into the warm bubbles of the bath, making her hair all wet and shiny. And Mary kept pushing and pushing and pushing—
—until the water stopped moving.
Tiny sat on the floor, sucking an acorn while Mary dragged Lamb-Wolf out of the bathtub and wrapped her in the bed sheets, turning her into a white log. It took a long time to pull the white log across the floor. When Mary got to the door, she shoved hard and the white log bounced down the stairs in little bunny hops.
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three
Touching the back of Lamb-Wolf’s head, Mary felt something wet. She tasted it, hoping for the white sweetness of the chest bells, but it smelled awful and hot and red. It didn’t make her any less hungry. Lamb-Wolf didn’t move. There was only the sun shining on bright grass, and swarms of black mosquitoes flying around her head, and Tiny started crying from inside the house, screechy and forever.
Mary turned around and screamed right back.
The forest stared at her, wide-eyed. Then it opened its arms and beckoned slowly.
* * *
The forest took care of Mary and Tiny. Mary ate flowers and some of her own hair and...
