Blake Sleep Walk Society

1. Auflage 2010
ISBN: 978-0-9821407-3-4
Verlag: P.R.A. Publishing
Format: EPUB
Kopierschutz: Adobe DRM (»Systemvoraussetzungen)

E-Book, Englisch, 172 Seiten

In the spring of 2002,childhood friends, Violet Monroe and Terran Ingram are headed home from their first year in college. It has been an eventful year; Terran has become the new beauty queen on campus and Violet well....Then of course there was the 9/11 attack on America. Both are returning home with thoughts of reuniting with their other best friend, Joey, very rich and underachieving and madly in love with Terran. Their hopes of a carefree summer are dashed forever by the events that take place.

Autoren/Hrsg.

Blake, Kendare

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Chapter 1
OKAY, THE WORLD HATES US. THEY HAVE FLOWN PLANES INTO BUILDINGS and bombs are going off everywhere. Aside from the general displacement of the American psyche, the spring of 2002 is like any other spring in the northeastern United States. It is raining. It has been raining for a week—cold rain from gray clouds, beating with military precision right onto your head, intent on giving you pneumonia. Apparently, the memo to Mother Nature, April showers are to end in April, has gotten lost. What do I care? I am pneumonia-free and only an observer to these drab surroundings; shut up in the top floor of this dormitory of flesh-colored bricks, with water sliding down the windows like mucus only to run across the ground, making the world slippery. Nine stories down, students who haven’t finished up their final exams—all running against the wet onslaught behind the barricade of school-logo umbrellas—are skating along on the grass. It is stupid. The rain is coming down at an angle, so their legs are still being pelted—if they would just walk slower, they might save themselves some splashing. The beats against the window make my brain twitch; I can’t take my eyes off of the students, milling around down there, made unidentifiable by the weather. There are so many of them, and more in universities just like this across the country. I try to pick out one or two with more confidence in their strides, more hurry in their steps as they go back and forth taking tests, but I can’t. They all look the same, clothed in soaked sweatshirts and ambition. The law of numbers says they will not all make it, some will be pushed to the side, left to create the background for the ones who do. It is they whom I fear for and they who I fear to be; it has to be much better to be above them, to have the ability to say with pride, “I help people,” or more discreetly, “I have money.” Those pushed aside will crowd around these declarations, clap and grit their collective teeth because all their lives their parents and the media have promised them that they wouldn’t have to be part of the crowd. Some of them will always believe that promise; some of them will spend decades scraping for whatever it was that they placed above everything else: a possession, a job, or a love. I put my hand against the glass to shield them from my eyes and feel them struggling against my palm. For some of them, that struggle will come to be romantic—the climb more important than the summit. Maybe they are the lucky ones—having goals and learning to like the fight for perfection. Behind me, the door opens and closes. It is Terran, my best friend of 7 years, who is now my college roommate, back from her own race across the sloppy campus. She cuts a great picture against the open doorway, with her golden hair, in her wet jacket. If I were a 13-year-old boy, I’m certain that I’d be having one of those slow motion Phoebe Cates-climbing-from-the-swimming-pool-type moments. Terran is the kind of girl that evokes envy in everyone but me, and I know that I will probably end up as the first member of her fan club. “Violet?” She says it like she can’t see me standing by the window—like I’m hiding. I don’t move at the sound of my name, which my parents picked out before they saw me. Now it is like a joke. A plain girl having a name that is a color. One of my boyfriends in high school said that the only color on my face was in my eyes and that the color resembled a faded dollar bill. He added that they would look good if only they could express feeling. He was right about the color. I stood in the bathroom one day with a wad of crumpled one-dollar bills just to make sure. Funny how one-dollar bills are the ones that fade. The hardest working of the money system with the least value. “Violet?” Terran calls out again. I am not really listening, instead of hearing the right pronunciation of my name I hear “violent?” and I answer anyway. “Are you all packed?” she asks. I glance around the room, the walls white except for leftover poster tack, the beds stripped bare with our bags and totes piled on top. The remnants from our first year at college. “Yeah.” I finally respond. She gathers up her stack of belongings—much larger than mine, and flips off the lights. “Let’s get out of here,” she says. Before I go, I take one last look down at the ground, one last look at the campus. Some of these college kids are really in their element. Those scruffy dreadlocked white girls with revolutionist sweat in their armpits must be so sad to see the term end. What will they do all summer in their sparrow-fart hometowns without their fellow activists to shout beside them? What will they do when they discover that their kind of passion doesn’t outlast an undergrad degree, unless you join up with PETA? Terran shouts to me to hurry up. I turn and follow her down the shadowy hall—running water making designs on the walls—and bump her shoulder like I’ve done since we were 12. She smiles at me. I’ve heard it said that friends scatter and that nothing lasts forever—that the people whose faces you look into now will be strangers in your address book someday. But she’s been with me since junior high, and those words read like words from my econ textbook: dry, and with no real meaning beyond the cognitive. It is a long drive home from school, 5 hours in clear weather. Terran’s Mercedes cruises along at 80; she’s not mindful of the rain. She is daring the cops to have the nerve to pull her over in the downpour. She turns down the radio. Taps a cigarette out of her pack, lights it, then passes it to me. I don’t smoke, but I don’t think she wants me to outlive her. She crumples up the pack and rolls down the window to toss it. I catch her arm and reprimand her with, “Save the Planet.” She smirks—ha ha—funny little joke as we drive along an interstate decorated with plastic bottles and fast food wrappers. She drops the pack into my outstretched hand and we feel good about ourselves, doing our part to postpone the day when we all get caught in our own wasteful trap—maybe we’ll be able to gnaw our legs off and get free, and maybe we won’t. The point is, this crumpled cigarette pack will find its way into a proper landfill with a lot of trash instead of in a ditch with only a little. “You’re pale today,” Terran says, “even more than usual.” I glance at myself in the side mirror. The gray of the day has passed itself onto me like I’m a chameleon—my brown hair looks silver instead. Terran asks how I did on my finals and I shrug. It doesn’t really matter how I did. I didn’t declare a major this year, just filled my time with exploratory nonsense. I even took bowling and am now the proud owner of a 135 bowling average. I don’t have to ask her how she did on her tests because she always does well; besides, I know what she really wants to talk about. On our way out of the parking lot we passed a boy scampering up the sidewalk with the other idiots, his lower half soaked from carrying a laughably small umbrella and a dozen roses. Terran stopped because she knew that boy was my former boyfriend, Brian. I told her to keep going. Two weeks ago I found him making out with Katie Quinn—a girl from our floor—on the living room sofa when I went to his house looking for a lost notebook. Terran wanted details the moment I told her, which are, I suppose, what a best friend would want. Receiving no details, she settled instead upon a barrage of canned questions: “How are you feeling?” “Fine,” I replied. “Are you angry?” “No.” “Do you want me to kick him in the balls?” Although that would be funny, again, “No,” I said. Now she’s asking them again, only this time being very careful, because after the flowers and my own avoidance, she thinks that just maybe he broke my heart, when really I just didn’t want the wet roses or a damp armrest from the rolled-down window. So, I try to pack the belated details into my answers, but they’re no longer enough. She wants more, always more. I do not have the energy to make things up—not today anyway. If I were to tell her the truth, I would have to say that when I saw my boyfriend of 4 months messing around with a girl from my dorm, a scant 12 inches from my misplaced notebook, the first thought that entered my mind was: Hey, there’s my notebook! There was no screaming, no tears, no feelings of inadequacy, which are surely the way that a normal girl would respond if she were betrayed by a boy whom everybody wants. It is not normal that these feelings won’t come. I could freak out and quit school, cry a lot and maybe get back on Prozac. It would be one outburst that everyone would understand, an injury that would put me on the sidelines and out of a game where there are no winners. Of course I don’t tell Terran this. She definitely would not get it, not her, with her beauty and her life spanned out on a red velvet carpet. She wouldn’t get it, so I don’t say it, because I’ve learned fast enough that when you go around saying things that people don’t get, they begin to think you’re weird. And weird is bad, though I don’t know why, if being unique is good. What’s the difference between weird and unique? Nothing more than the degree of social...